nike.

i have a favorite pair of sneaks. my black and white nike free's. i've had them three years. they don't require socks. they dry in mere hours. they have the rebound of a prairie leopard. they are my best pair of shoes i've ever owned.
these shoes have carried me through many 5k's, several fun runs, and days of lazy HPE classes.
but i'm learning to challenge myself again in them. to want to sweat, burn, and feel pain. it's invigorating, and i have missed it dearly. it was a huge part of my life that i let disappear, and here i am grabbing it back with full force.

i apologize for the lack of posts that i've recently had. not having internet in my current place of dwelling has stifled the creativity a little bit.
however, with that said, my thoughts have still been flourishing.
i'm definitely in a season of growth. realizing the difference between religion and relationship.
my mom and i, and a few others, have been discussing the current state of our hearts and the place that we're currently in. but, more importantly, where we are seeking to grow and to travel in the next stages of our lives.

so, here i am in these next few months, trying to find a job. trying to focus on what it is i am seeking in my own life. what dreams i am trying to fill. what dreams i am even dreaming. my main goal at the moment: trying to get discipline a very regular part of my life. trying to becoming a better kid and learn patience as i am thrown back into the circle of family. trying to be a great long-distance friend, which is extremely trying and difficult. aching to become a better me.

and i've found that all these little crumbs sure add up. sometimes it can be overtaking. so many things that have to be fulfilled, so many barriers that keep me from attaining my goals. however, in the last week i have laid my head down at night completely satisfied with my accomplishments. i am forming myself into a stronger person, inside and out, and it feels great.

we've got to keep running. and just as i am learning to run again with each day it becomes less of a task and more of an enjoyment, escape, and challenge to myself to do more, be more, and live more vivaciously. to truly encounter life. take that bull by the horns and fly around looking like an idiot. whatever the case may be, i want to do it, and i will be it.

and, just as all those nike commercials in the 90's stated, sometimes we have to get over ourselves, choose our way, and "just do it."