thermometer

thermometers cannot lie, hide, cheat, or become something they're not. there isn't a way to fabricate a wanted result or action.

i'm finding that i dislike invasion of privacy. i like the outside person to see what i want them to see when i want them to see it.

i don't offer free glimpses into my soul, or deep conversations without much mustering within my innards.

i have this human tendency to fear being known, and yet really all i have sought in my deepest relationships is to be completely known and loved in entirety.

but with being known, and taking that chance, comes the possibilities of rejection, abandonment, acceptance, or judgment.

what are we so afraid of?

why do we settle with half-living life?

what if we were truly known. living in full portion. showcasing every small characteristic of our beings, no matter the size, portion, or importance?

experiencing the essence of one's persona would be completely beautiful and simultaneously intimidating- challenging encounter by encounter another to perhaps jump off the cliff and grab life by the horns.

our generation hides emotional instability and past grievances behind a cluttered form of self-expression and individuality. reliance and interest in other's needs is seen as weak. compliance is boring. expression is freeform.

but what if, really at the heart of things, we are just all beaten hearts searching to connect, yearning to be desired, seeking companionship without walls or barriers?

when it gets down to the bottom of things, that's really the truth isn't it? if we lay fear aside- that's what we all want. some might want successful careers, or adventures a long side of relational goals, but no one truly desires solitude.

strength doesn't lie in being disinterested. it comes in being vulnerable.

vulnerability is strength.

vulnerability doesn't preform an appearance or a conversation. transparency is breathing, living, communing, and the result is a direct action of who you are. you get what you get- being scared, bold, funny, boring, cold, hold, or mild.